not there

I really enjoy reading your inner thoughts. I on the other hand have none. Life is swarmed with uncertainty and cloudiness that I have forgotten which way is up. I can't seem to be all in at one place. I feel like I was hit with a bat and shattered like an egg shell. I am trying to pick up my broken pieces and still live life. I am all for being broken because that is when God does his best work, but this time is different. I am unsure why. I am unsure about how to even relate to God. I am focused on my physically state that I am not taking care of my mental and spiritually. Balance is what I need and I am not sure if that will come. I am for sure an internally processor, so this blog is great for me. I am not sure that if I was asked to communicate about my state that I would be able to articulate it well enough. Anyhow, just some thoughts to chew on. Thanks for being fab friends. Love you all