So...as my boys say, "lets keep it solid B!" Yes, yes, yes the Holy Spirit is missing in my life. I wish i could point to scripture and say "this" is the key to living the unbridled power of the Holy Spirit, but i am in a fight to kill myself so the HS will be activated in my life. I don't know if being raised in a post Holy Spirit church has presented the need for me to unlearn what i know, or if i am simply missing it all together? Day in and day out I am fighting with myself to live 1 life instead of 2. the frustration is vexing, but i guess it is a battle worth waging with myself. I don't know, you guys are speaking right to where i am at in my struggle- but hey it is a blessing to have those near you point u to the Word! It is a struggle to not simply point to Scripture and say "this is what the text says" because I think I have missed much of what it truly says. i am trying to come to a place of balance where i realize what i need to do in order to live an abandoned ministry for the Lord and not a compartamentalized life for God when i desire. But, then i believe there is no balance to truly living for God for it will require the trigger to be pulled on what we know so that God will be able to guide us step by step and moment by moment so we may live according to His will daily. But, that is the rub of where i currently stand - a moment by moment surrendering to God; thought by thought!
I'm not sure if this a great starting point for getting to the will of God's plan for me daily, but i hope this simple beginning will allow me to slowly and humbly take each step under God. I guess i am so fed up that i just am done with the race of trying to "do good" for God and simply want to live His will and be satisfied with real results for His Kingdom instead of running through a human-spiritual agenda. Therefore I hope we can all blur the lines of our faith and simply walk step by step and truly rely on God's Spirit to guide us and drive us to Worship!
Sorry about this funky post - Just fed up with trying to figure it out and wanting to live a day where i can look back and believe i walked with God in relationship and didn't miss the opportunities to wage war for His Kingdom. Oh Yeah, and do so as a husband :->
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